A year ago today, if you had told me I would be into a daily meditation practice and energy healing I would not have believed you. But I am. And this is why. On May 1 I had the most awesome healing experience with Spiritual teacher & best-selling author Deborah King. In the middle of a 3hr workshop I had raised my hand for help healing my chronic debilitating migraines.
I was attracted to Deborah as a healer because she had been a high powered attorney who was diagnosed with cancer at age 25. With that diagnosis she became a student of healing to heal herself. I had also heard that you didn’t need to believe in energy healing to receive a healing benefit so I signed up.
After finally mustering the nerve to raise my hand, Deborah called me up in front of the group and did a healing on me. Before she began she asked me a few questions about my brain tumor. Because I knew I was coming to her workshop I had just read her book, “Truth Heals, what you hide can hurt you”.
The book is about speaking your truth especially if there is shame or guilt involved. Because of her own personal experiences she wrote the book in 7 chapters, a chapter to heal each energy chakra. Chakras are energy centers in our body which energy flows through and there are 7 of them.
If emotions are suppressed in your body they become dense and stuck energy. So with reading her book I was somewhat prepared to be vulnerable going up on stage. At that point I was 1.5 years (now I’m at the 2.5 year mark) into dealing with chronic migraines and I had reached a frustrating low point in my struggle. I was more than willing to do whatever work it took to clear the migraines from regularly showing up and especially shorten their duration & eliminate their frequency in my head.
So yes, I was willing to “do” the work even if it meant speaking my painful truth in front of an audience of strangers.
As I stepped onto the stage Deborah looked right at me and validated my physical pain. “Whoa, that’s a big migraine”…and moments later…“Yes I see your tumor.”
She asked me specifically:
*what was happening in my life at the time I was diagnosed with the tumor
…I told her.
Next, She asked me specifically…
*what was happening in my life when the tumor started to grow
I was so desperate to go back to “normal” and experience life without a migraine even for a day! I was willing to let go of my life-long and conditioned fear of caring about what people thought about me, or what they thought about why my marriage ended because of an affair and/or what they thought of me being married or not. All my own judgement and shame issues, not theirs.
“My husband was having an affair” I managed to say as I avoided eye contact with everyone in the audience that was now staring at me.
“Are you still with him?” She asked. I just shook my head & let some bottled up tears fall as a familiar lump of pain formed in my throat.
“Feel that?” Deborah said to the audience…”there is a lot of fear and anxiety locked in your body”
A wave of pain, grief, shame & sadness left every cell of my body…
All of a sudden I had more room and space to breathe in my own body. Breathing deeper and more often is still something I am working on. Breathe is our life force. If you are someone like me with a diagnosis like a tumor or cancer, in my experience the fear of death alone can compete unconsciously with your life fore energy.
Back to my healing session. Deborah stood close to me. Her hand placed lightly in the small of my back. I believe she intuitively knew I was petrified to be up in front of the audience, my knees were weak from being the center of attention.
She called up helpers and she sent energy healing to me.
After a couple of minutes …she whispered in my ear. “I wanted to do more but I was told to stop”. “Ok, thank you” I said as she hugged me and I walked slowly back to my seat.
“Energy Healing can work until an issue manifests in the physical form,” Deborah taught, “once an issue manifests then you need doctors. In fact, when you are facing something as big as a brain tumor or cancer have as many people on your team as possible.”
Deborah waited until I had gone back to my seat and looked straight at me…”Be open to surgery” she advised me, “you are going to want to keep talking to those Doctors”
“Okay” I said.
“It’s okay if you are not ready,” Deborah continued, “Just meditate everyday, morning and night, until you are ready”
At the time I remember feeling an amazing rush of energy, a lightness of the burden I had been carrying, consciously & unconsciously. I remember not quite understanding the magnitude of the healing had taken place. I was tired from the emotional release and tears just from sharing pieces of my story, recognizing my grief made me feel relieved.
Now, a year later I see that healing session was one more necessary step on my healing journey. Moving me forward again in living a life full of peace and joy. Carrying around 7 years of disappointment, shame and grief wasn’t serving me, wasn’t serving my life and it definitely wasn’t serving my health.
As part of the 3 hr workshop with Deborah, she taught us how to test energy chakras on partners to determined if energy was running healthy in and out, and to test if all our chakras were open or closed. I definitely had some work to do in these as well. Especially heart (4th chakra, green) and throat (5th chakra, blue).
I am so thankful for Deborah King and for energy healing. Now, a year later, I am continuing to receive energy healing and meditate on my healing options for my brain tumor treatment but with so much less weight, fear and anxiety then a year ago this time.
If you are on a healing journey and looking for ways to move past your pain message me.
Yours in the healing journey.