My healing experience with Deborah King

A year ago today, if you had told me I would be into a daily meditation practice and energy healing I would not have believed you. But I am. And this is why.   On May 1 I had the most awesome healing experience with Spiritual teacher & best-selling author Deborah King. In the middle of a 3hr workshop I had raised my hand for help healing my chronic debilitating migraines.

I was attracted to Deborah as a healer because she had been a high powered attorney who was diagnosed with cancer at age 25. With that diagnosis she became a student of healing to heal herself.  I had also heard that you didn’t need to believe in energy healing to receive a healing benefit so I signed up.
After finally mustering the nerve to raise my hand, Deborah called me up in front of the group and did a healing on me. Before she began she asked me a few questions about my brain tumor. Because I knew I was coming to her workshop I had just read  her book, “Truth Heals, what you hide can hurt you”.
The book is about speaking your truth especially if there is shame or guilt involved.  Because of her own personal experiences she wrote the book in 7 chapters, a chapter to heal each energy chakra.  Chakras are energy centers in our body which energy flows through and there are 7 of them.
If emotions are suppressed in your body they become dense and stuck energy. So with reading her book I was somewhat prepared to be vulnerable going up on stage. At that point I was 1.5 years (now I’m at the 2.5 year mark) into dealing with chronic migraines and I had reached a frustrating low point in my struggle.  I was more than willing to do whatever work it took to clear the migraines from regularly showing up and especially shorten their duration & eliminate their frequency in my head.
So yes, I was willing to “do” the work even if it meant speaking my painful truth in front of an audience of strangers.
As I stepped onto the stage Deborah looked right at me and validated my physical pain. “Whoa, that’s a big migraine”…and moments later…“Yes I see your tumor.”
She asked me specifically:
*what was happening in my life at the time I was diagnosed with the tumor
…I told her.
Next, She asked me specifically…
*what was happening in my life when the tumor started to grow
I was so desperate to go back to “normal” and experience life without a migraine even for a day! I was willing to let go of my life-long and conditioned fear of caring about what people thought about me, or what they thought about why my marriage ended because of an affair and/or what they thought of me being married or not.  All my own judgement and shame issues, not theirs.
“My husband was having an affair” I managed to say as I avoided eye contact with everyone in the audience that was now staring at me.
“Are you still with him?” She asked. I just shook my head & let some bottled up tears fall as a familiar lump of pain formed in my throat.
“Feel that?” Deborah said to the audience…”there is a lot of fear and anxiety locked in your body”
A wave of pain, grief, shame & sadness left every cell of my body…
All of a sudden I had more room and space  to breathe in my own body. Breathing deeper and more often is still something I am working on. Breathe is our life force. If you are someone like me with a diagnosis like a tumor or cancer, in my experience the fear of death alone can  compete unconsciously with your life fore energy.
Back to my healing session. Deborah stood close to me. Her hand placed lightly in the small of my back. I believe she intuitively knew I was petrified to be up in front of the audience, my knees were weak from being the center of attention.
She called up helpers and she sent energy healing to me.
After a couple of minutes …she whispered in my ear. “I wanted to do more but I was told to stop”. “Ok, thank you” I said as she hugged me and I walked slowly back to my seat.
“Energy Healing can work until an issue manifests in the physical form,” Deborah taught, “once an issue manifests then you need doctors. In fact, when you are facing something as big as a brain tumor or cancer have as many people on your team as possible.”
Deborah waited until I had gone back to my seat and looked straight at me…”Be open to surgery” she advised me, “you are going to want to keep talking to those Doctors”
“Okay” I said.
“It’s okay if you are not ready,” Deborah continued,  “Just meditate everyday, morning and night, until you are ready”
At the time I remember feeling an amazing rush of energy, a lightness of the burden I had been carrying, consciously & unconsciously.  I remember not quite understanding the magnitude of the healing had taken place. I was tired from the emotional release and tears just from sharing pieces of my story, recognizing my grief made me feel relieved.
Now, a year later I see that healing session was one more necessary step on my healing journey.  Moving me forward again in living a life full of peace and joy. Carrying around 7 years of disappointment, shame and grief wasn’t serving me, wasn’t serving my life and it definitely wasn’t serving my health.
As part of the 3 hr workshop with Deborah, she taught us how to test energy chakras on partners to determined if energy was running healthy in and out, and to test if all our chakras were open or closed. I definitely had some work to do in these as well. Especially heart (4th chakra, green) and throat (5th chakra, blue).
I am so thankful for Deborah King and for energy healing.  Now, a year later, I am continuing to receive energy healing and meditate on my healing options for my brain tumor treatment but with so much less weight, fear and anxiety then a year ago this time.
If you are on a healing journey and looking for ways to move past your pain message me.
Yours in the healing journey.
MKM
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Divorce Recovery 5 years out: Showing up with more love and more forgiveness

Feb. 26, 2017

I had a “Facebook memory” this a.m. and was moved to recognize THIS woman I was 5 years ago!!!
There I was….facing Change, Loss and Transition. In 1 day my life as I knew it changed. Security, Love, Marriage, Trust, Faith, Safe Harbor, Comfort, etc etc was gone.
What did I do?…in that deep valley of pain?…, all I knew was to focus #1 on God and I asked him over and over and over,…in anger, in frustration, in Why Me?, in tears, in fear, on my knees, in weeping, in prayer, in sadness, in disappointment, in loneliness, in weakness…..and the answers kept coming.
The Best thing I did was find myself, find my strength.
I returned to my outer strength of being a Competitive Athlete.
What was life giving to me? I returned to running, biking, swimming. These adventures and workouts made me feel free, strong, and that my whole life was ahead of me and that I could handle “anything” that was coming my way, not that my life was “over”…..It also helped me move thru all the emotions I was experiencing.
So today I celebrate!! Wahoo! Cheers to this Woman I was 5 years ago, on the cliff’s just north of UCSB. Enjoying the beach, the trails, the salt water air, the breathtaking views of the ocean, the sounds of the waves. Soaking it all in. I was also the fittest I’d ever been (2 months out from qualifying for Triathlon World Championships, and 1 month out from PR half marathon 1:35!! beating the PR I set when I was 24!! That felt good to have my body at optimal health and performance.
And to the emotional part, the inner strength that has all continued to be work in progress. After I reclaimed and built up those outer muscles the inner strength has followed. I have continued to spend the last 5 years of realigning myself with God and his plans for my life, working thru relationships that have grown me and challenged me. And of course the health and healing journey!!
Now it is a continued cycle of renewing my faith in my future by being more present then I’ve ever been able to be. Taking time out to meditate, pray and show up FULLY every day, in ALL my relationships with
#forgiveness
#love
The 35 year old version of me was so set on what my life was suppose to be AND I didn’t have the tools to surrender and forgive when that life path, life expectation changed.
The 40+ version of me keeps saying….. build that muscle, build that muscle, build that muscle. AND keep going…..
Showing up with more love, more forgiveness, more love, more forgiveness.
Sending you all much HOPE this morning.
Hugs in the healing journey!!!

Meredith

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